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Monday, February 9, 2009

jac just sneezed for the zillionth time today

after all that sneezing and sniffing, i wonder why my nose is still on my face
it's so clogged up, i just wanna take it out and wash then put back

i wanna whine NOOoooo this is such a bad timing for me to fall ill
my mom keep saying its cos of all the injustice i do to my body by not sleeping enough but i think its so suay pls. i know i sound so aunty but sighh.
i can't fall ill now, not with my wisdom tooth op in 2 days and attachment in 5 days and i haven't studied for a week alr

im worried cos its outpatient this time, so different and much less routine compared to inpatient. at least inpatient can smoke through. outpatient tt's not possible la
but, somewhere in me tells me that i'll be okay, everything will be okay
i'll just have to push on.

good news for my family! my grandma's is home! no more reunion dinner takeaway for my grandma, just us sitting together and eating as a family.
To start things off, we had a celebratory dinner last night for her home-coming :) she's so good now, it makes me forget about the past

like today, she actually asked me to go orchard with her to get a few stuff that she needs. imagine how eager i was cos 1 month ago, she refused to even step out of the house and now she wants to go to town. so even though i was feeling worse compared to yday, i couldn't turn her down so i spent the day at orchard with her and grandpa and i was really happy.
she's someone really precious and dear to me, even more so now cos i realised how vulnerable she can be behind the tough exterior.

she's so dear to me that when she combed through my hair while talking to me today, her habit btw, i gritted my teeth and held my breath in a gasp but i didn't move away from her and just let her continue combing
people who's ard me knows that no one can touch my hair, much less comb through it without me protesting. i mean, only the pple who permed their hair understands why cos if u do that, the curls will be gone.
and im already so lazy to blow dry every single day alr. it has lost some significant curls and i'm so tempted to straighten it and go straight again.
shud i?

anyways, im looking for a part-time job for my grandma and i need ideas. all i've seen are ads looking for retirees to do packing and flyer distributing. how can i let her do such tough stuff? so someone pls hit me with an idea thanks :)

im off